A few years ago, I blogged about something I was exploring. I called it, An Experiment in Praise. I had read a transformational book titled, The Hallelujah Factor, by Jack Taylor, and wanted to try out the principles in my own life. Boy, was I unprepared.
When I say that soon after all hell began to break loose in my life, I’m not kidding. I’m talking crazy, dramatic, blindsiding events. As one friend put it, “These kinds of things only happen to you and in Lifetime movies.”
I was only about three months into my experiment in praise when I woke up at 4:00 a.m., to searing pain in my left eye. A few days later, after realizing this wasn’t the viral pink eye assumed, I went to see my optometrist. Let’s just say he wasn’t happy.
The warmth of his bright light heightened the burning in my eyes. “Oh, boy. Oh my. Why did you wait so long to come and see me?” Not the words you want to hear from your physician when he’s checking you over. “Young lady, in my twenty-seven years of practice I’ve never seen anything like it,” the doctor said.
He walked to the door in his tiny office. Even with my blurred vision I could make out the blob of his hand staged over the doorknob. “I’m afraid you may not get your eyesight back. I just don’t know. This is bad. It appears as if a serious virus has burrowed deep into the stroma of your cornea and imbedded itself there. I need to call some of my colleagues. I’ll be back in a few minutes.”
With that, he walked out and left me to sit alone in stark white with nothing but fuzzy dark objects to keep me company. The room drew closer with each stuttered breath I took. Panic and hysteria washed over me in waves. Huge tears splattered onto my lap. I sat in the ophthalmologist’s chair feeling like a very small girl in a whole lot of trouble. Then I began my talk with God.
“Why is this happening to me now? I don’t understand. Just when it seems like I’m beginning to find my purpose and do something with it. How can I write if I can’t see? How can I read and study without my vision? Did I do something wrong? Am I being punished? Lord, I know I probably don’t really mean this, but at this moment, I’d almost rather die than lose my sight. I’m just being honest. Help me. Oh please help me! Jesus, please help me!”
About twenty minutes later the doctor finally came back in the room. I wiped the tears away with my fingers, then the snot with the back of my hand. I braced myself for what he would say ….
This is a snippet of one of the things I walked through during one of my Jobette seasons. (Think female version of Job.)
That was 2009 — I’ll tell you the rest of the story later. But suffice it to say, God has taken the fear, confusion, and pain of events I couldn’t have imagined, things I’ll never get over, and carried me through to a place where I am surviving and thriving. I am not a victim. I am victorious! Actually, the very adversities that caused me so much pain are the sources of my greatest purpose. I need to know this, because all hell seems to be breaking loose in my life again. But there’s a difference this time — I’m equipped with lessons from my past, from wisdom tried and applied, and I know the situation is temporary. I have tasted the power in praise, and it is good.
I’ll share more in the coming days, as I’m daring to experiment publicly with the praise I’ve never stopped privately. Yes, I’ve experienced plenty of problems, but it is in them that miracles are born.
Could you use a miracle?
Anita Fresh Faith
Anita Brooks, CPT, CLTF, CCS, motivates others to dynamic break-throughs. Blending mind, heart, body, and spirit, as an Inspirational Business/Life Coach, International Speaker, and Common Trauma Expert. She shares hope and encouragement on the stage and from the page — reminding audiences, “It’s never too late for a fresh start with fresh faith.”
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